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i really wanna smoke a pack or two until i cant breath. i dont wanna exist rn
#i hate myself#i wish everything would stop#i want everything to stop#i hate everything#everything hurts#why does everything hurt#personal#depressing shit#kinda depressing#mental breakdown#mentally unstable#mentally fucked#this is depressing#tw depressing stuff#mentally ill#self destruction#tw smoking#tw sh implied#mentally sick#sick of everything#depressed#depressive mood#self destructive#destruction#sorry for being depressing#i hate my brain#i hate this#i hate my life#tw sui mention#tw sui implied
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Hi! this is kinda an art request if u dont mind. And it's angst related, can you draw like where wanda and cosmo obvs have seen for a while how (human) timmy has been treated by his real parents. I just want to see like the "last straw" which lead Cosmo and Wanda wanting them to make Timmy as their own. (IM HAPPY THAT TIMMY HAS A FAMILY THAT LOVES AND CARES FOR HIM)
The "Last Straw"?
Cosmo and Wanda have seen humans at their best. They've seen humans at their worst. They've seen anything and everything that they've gone numb and used to what humans get up to.
But nothing's shaken them quite like Timmy's case did. Nothing has ever made a Fairy feel such strong human emotions than what Timmy made them feel, on that one particular night.
The thing that broke Cosmo and Wanda was Timmy himself.
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#asks#itty bitties fop au#germangirl321#tw abuse#tw emotional abuse#tw emotional distress#tw implied death#tw implied sui#tw sui implied#<- ask to tag#(especially ask to tag bcs these are the offered tumblr tags)#godkids wish for stupid things all the time. sometimes they wish for good things and bad things. or things that helps themselves or others#they wish for things that teaches them life lessons or for things that damages them in the future.#but at their core every child has a pure wish that they want more than anything.#for hazel. her core wish is for change to stop. for dev. his core wish is for his father's love#timmy's wish. at the center of everything. is to run away from himself and all that he is. to be something- anything- but Him.#its this core wish that fairies desire most. its their ambrosia. and its almost always impossible to grasp in its purity.#they cant stop change or forge a father's love after all.#Most fairies would be ecstatic to claim a child's core wish. It's the peak of their career- highly coveted highly praised.#but Cosmo and Wanda took no pleasure when they finally consumed their one- and only one for they'd never do it again- core wish.#as said before. cosmo and wanda really. really love timmy turner. and timmy really really loves his fairies. love!!! is a powerful thing!!#anyways this is a heavy topic and a heavy ask so im keeping it out of the main tags#also if you're curious as to whose responding back to timmy#its cosmo#lots of people tend to portray wanda as the more emotional sensitive type. yknow the “motherly” role.#but i think thats wrong.#was considering cutting out their responses for this ask#but then i figured that CosWan would be responding back in earnest to calm him down as best they could
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im just so sad, i can't keep up anymore and everything is changing too fast
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On average, what is the total MONTHLY amount that you spend on dining out*?
*(This doesn't only count going out to restaurants, but also stuff like picking up fast food to bring home, getting a coffee on the way to work, getting a premade sandwich from a grocery store deli during lunch, buying a quick snack from a convenience store or food cart whilst walking somewhere, ordering a pizza or any other food to be delivered to your home, etc.)
*(If you often dine out in groups/as a household: calculate and divide the costs so that you get a Per Person average. This is for YOU individually, NOT the total household/group costs)
(I'm sure polls similar to this have been made before (very common topic), I just haven't personally seen one that I can remember, so, I was curious to do my own! I was discussing this with a group of people today and it was very interesting to see how widely the number varied between individuals. :0c )
(Reblog for bigger sample size if you can, and feel free to explain your answer in tags if there's anything extra to add!)
#polls#tumblr polls#I'm mostly in the 0/1 - 25$ category. Maybe the rare month is a bit over $25 if there's something specific going on like birthday.#Which I'm NEVER eating in an actual restaurant (erm... covid... plus I just hate restaurant environments. i would rather pickup#the food and bring it home to a peaceful quiet environment that I control lol). But more typically like stopping by a grocery store deli#section or something. I don't have coffee that much. And I can't eat fast food much due to my health issues/diet restriction stuff#so if I'm out like coming back from an appointment and I start feeling really sick and weak. I know that a hamburger will just#blow up my system and cause nausea or something. So I try to pick the breadiest most#neutral looking turkey sandwich at the safeway deli to eat during the hour ride home or whatever lol#I actually kind of wish I could do stuff like get food more often vecause it would take the burden of cooking everything off of me#but.. alas... Money... and Health Things... T o T#I still wouldn't do it ALL the time but like... once a week instead of once a month or something.. or maybe turning into a coffee#person.. I do love drinks A LOT .. i am a drink person who will have 5 different drinks sipping on at all times#But i just have to make them all myself mostly lol#And I cant really have too much coffee since it will make me sick. so like.. teas and juice mostly#When I inevitably become a millionaire by never using social media never networking and only finishing one#sculpture every 5 months which I dont even post about or sell - then I shall... get more drinks..#I will somehow wean my body onto coffee and drink one a day solely for the ritual of it#Though even then... I would still probably just like.. buy the mateirals to make it at home or something#Like if you had a million dollars you could just buy a kitchen grade ice cream machine and other stuff to make your own milkshakes and#coffees and smoothies and bubble teas. Genuinely I think even if I were a BILLIONAIRE I would still look at playing likr $8 for a single#coffee and go .. uh.... I could just buy the equipment to make this and then save that money. PLUS. its in my house now so no need to#have to leave. I can make my own drinks in the comfort of home. .. ideal..#Like no matter how rich I ever got I would still have the lingering scroogey stinginess. like i am NOT paying for that. I will jus#make it myself. Especially if it was an Everyday thing. Anythign thats part of my routine I try to optimize and make as efficient as#possible... ANYWAY.. In an IDEAL world I would get treats. but probably not that much. as on a daily basis it would start to get#to me and I would just save up to buy kitchen machinery if I was rich lol
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hey in ur peri animatic: (https://youtu.be/OCqlRuDaXYU?si=K52WDu_vw9rg7chz) that I have been permanently obsessed over since today and have watched about 20 times by now so much that I have drawn & posted stuff based on it what was that partial bug form peri had?
I haven’t watched either of the show btw so if it’s explained in the show please tell me plsssss
OK, SO the bug thing is not technically canon to the series. It's based on my own headcanons for fairy biology, but i do have justifications for it!! Fairies have very strong shape-shifting abilities, so it would make sense that the form they show to humans isn't necessarily their true form(not to mention extreme that mimicry is very common in insects). And you want to know the visible traits almost every fairy has in common? Being very small with Insect-like wings.
The fact that their humanoid form isn't their true form in actually confirmed in the show! Cosmo and Wanda are revealed to look like biblically accurate pseudo-angels in the museum episode. (I say pseudo angels because the Flaming Sword of Eden is only debatably sentient and I don't think is considered an angel. Ophanim are also debatably not angels because they don't have wings (sorry for the angel tangent I like angels))
So wouldn't their true forms be angelic then? Well, yes. But I like bugs so. Also I have more headcanons to justify myself. I like to think that they have both a true-true form (incomprehensible to the human brain, probably exists mostly in a dimension invisible to us, that looks how we imagine biblically accurate angels), and a fairy form (which is visible to humans but is naturally very insect like and tends to scare people). So, in order to interact with humans, they have to learn to shapeshift into a humanoid form but will occasionally slip if they get too relaxed/aren't careful, hence the mandibles coming out when he yawns!
The reason they struggle so much more with human forms than the animals or objects they typically turn into is that, well, they aren't trying to convince those animals or objects. The more human they try to look, the harder it is to keep up convincingly. If you turn into a really uncanny squirrel, only other squirrels will notice. If you turn into a really uncanny human, they form a lynch mob and burn you at the stake.
#fop#fairly oddparents#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop a new wish#headcanons#ok I think I said everything I wanted to#my brain has so many useless thoughts bouncing around in there#their bright colors would also imply that they are poisonous to eat#my personal theory is that Jorgen is half human idk how else to explain whatever he is. tall. no wings. that or he's something else entirel#maybe he's a higher rank of angel#fairies are definitely a type of angel in this world#but they don't seem to line up with any specific rank as far as I can tell#they behave most like I'd expect a Guardian angel to which could make Jorgen an Archangel or Principality#but Ophanims are in the first sphere of heaven which. uh I don't think it's right#to be clear I'm not even religious im just way too into angels#Uhhhh anyway I guess the moral of the story is that I did that just because I wanted to an because nobody could stop me#Actually Im just thinking about this now#I mostly drew baby poof without bug features to keep his design uncluttered visually#but fairies having naturally very human looking larva would explain how changelings happen#something something evolution. mutualism. those parasite birds. idk#ok im out of thoughts now seriously this time youre free now#speculative biology
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and if the universe answered your wish for you in another life
#isat#in stars and time#isat siffrin#isat loop#i think about them a lot#isat spoilers#they mean everything to me#because i cant stop thinking about how loop was helping fufil their own wish but would never get to be the one to live the outcome
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im 27 now
#ganondoodles#personal#its past midnight my time#so im officially 27 now#also no this isnt meant as a complaint that im tired of hearing news about palestine#well kinda bc I WISH THE OPPRESSION WOULD STOP#LET THEM LIVE#i just want a good life for everything#still fighting of course#but it takes toll on you hearing and seeing more horrifieing news each day with half the world taking the side of the oppressor
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gwen stacy could literally be wearing three seperate trans pins and a patch that says "trans and proud" in the next movie and ppl would still be like Um Actually She Could Just Be A Cis Ally 🙄🙄 You're Obviously Projecting You Trans People Just Want To Make Everything About Yourself
#like fr does it not occur to cis people the irony of saying 'you're just trying to make everything about yourself'#while trying to shoot down trans ppl talking about a trans coded character#hey bucko maybe take a step back and think about why you're so obsessed with jumping thru hoops to make her Not trans#anyway i really liked how her coding was handled and i wish ppl would stop bein fuckin idiots about it#atsv#across the spiderverse#gwen stacy#spider gwen#might delete this later its kindof venty
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Crazy how i’m not being kissed hard enough to forget everyone who has ever hurt me rn
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#ughhhhhhh#so many things i wish i could get out of my head lately#even for just like a second#sometimes life is just a constant mantra of ‘things will get better eventually’ ad infinum#for over ten years#it is not eventually yet and i hate it so so much#STOP letting me think about my feelings on no sleep it sucks#a relationship would NOT fix me#but god sometimes i want to try it anyway#ignore meeeee#im a mess rn#going THROUGH it#with NO kissing too!!#honestly a rude addition on top of everything else smh#im gay and i like sleeping
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I wish I could be very normal and ' enjoy each day as it comes' and 'live in the moment' but unfortunately if I do that how will I be prepared for the future in which I am more miserable???
#i just wish i could relax and enjoy thinge#but i cant#if i stop worrying about things that might not happen they will happen#not proven but very very likely#and id rather be emotionally prepared#i am prepared for the day when all my friends realize i actually am terrible and manipulative and leave me behind#like im not fine with it and in fact it would kill me#but it could very well happen so im at least a little prepared for#last time i was too happy and rrlaxed everything went to shit#if i had a nickel for every time i was happy and relaxed and everythung went to shit#id have two nickels#i guess id have 3 cause i think i might have been happy as a toddler#but when I turned 5 i became cognizant and then bam#lifetime of undiagnosed and unmedicated anxiety#haha#anyway#sorry for the random vent i have accidentally put myself in the trenches over nothing#vent tw#pls dont respond it generally makes me feel worse#and makes me feel like im manipulating people#if you read this far im sorry ill also be fine im just anxious and stressed about stupid stuff as usual
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I'm sorry that i can't communicate all of my feelings, they feel so strage to me. I'm sorry that I'm distant and pushing you away when you just want to help me and be here for me. but i don't want you to be here when I'm drowning in this darkness, i don't want you to see me vulnerable, i don't want you to see how dark everything could get. but also asking for help is never my thing, i prefer to do it all on my own. i can do it all on my own, so don't worry. and i never forget you, i don't hate you, i just sometimes hate myself so much that i don't think i deserve a friend, or a hand. you deserve better, always. maybe not me as a friend, I'm bad. I'm the worst. so, it's okay if you want to go and leave me. i won't blame you. i can't blame you. because i would leave me too if i could tho.
#personal#me to my friends#I'm sorry for pushing you away#i wish everything would stop#i hate my life#i hate everything#i hate my brain#i hate myself#depressing shit#kinda depressing#mentally unstable#mentally fucked#this is depressing#self destruction#mentally tired#self sabotaging#self hate#self sabotage#pushing away#push away#i am lonely#i hate feeling lonely#loneliness#my thoughts#depressed#walk away#burning bridges
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the limit
rougher sketch that i also like haha:
#lumine#xiao#xiaolumi#corrupted lumine#i still often think abt that au#im so (not) sorry for the angst u-u#i wish lumine would stop rotating in my brain for a moment so i can draw everything else i wanna draw too i
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Getting home late from a business trip, about to get on my last train home when I see an Inosuke figure on a guy's bag. As he gets off the train, I see he has an Inosuke lanyard and badge too.
You, sir, have given me the power to PIG ASSAULT the rest of my way home.
#the power of KnY merch#was meeting with a colleague in Tokyo and she said she liked the sticky note on my laptop#it was one of Yushiro's papers#i said I totally forgot about as though I didn't even see it and she smilingly shared in the joke#four more stops until my last stretch home#my back hurts and I wish I had a Baby Inosuke to kick me and realign everything#i would shatter if Big Inosuke kicked me
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Damian, still fresh to the family, but actually starting to warm up to the idea of them actually being his family, looks up online 'how to be a good little brother.'
He finds all sorts of things like, "using cuteness to get what you want from your elder siblings" (lame, no way that works) "fake extra tears when they punch you so your parents buy you icecream and whatever else you want" (why on EARTH would he want anyone think he could be so weak?) etc, but he also sees stuff about Pranks, sibling fights (in the sense of "you know they're real siblings because they'll throw hands one minute, then 5 minutes later be laughing watching tv together like nothing happened"), and concepts like Sibling Code (like, absolute secrecy between siblings toward their parents, threatening potential heartbreakers, etc).
Cue him pulling pranks, like leaving lego everywhere and waiting for his shoeless family to step on them, hiding things that the others need (like, right now), sneaking things into the batcave that shouldn't be in the batcave, throwing himself at his siblings to brawl without any reason and then promptly stopping also with no reason (and wondering why they won't spend time with him to bond afterward), planning out how to threaten a literal magic space princess (Kori, who would probably find it very cute if he actually made it that far), hiding Literally Very Important information about his siblings from Bruce and Alfred because he's not a snitch, and he is a great little brother. (he's going to get an A in Little Brother which is something totally normal to want and achieve)
He eventually gets BIG scolded for his constant misbehaviour, though. Bruce and Dick are asking why he's going off the rails so much when he doesn't even seem particularly angry anymore - in fact, sometimes he even seems fairly content! Is there an issue they're unaware of? Something he's not expressing to the family? They're not mad if there's a problem, they just want to help!
So, of course, he then has to embarrassingly explain that he was just following little brother protocol, according to.. the internet. He gets bullied about it for weeks by his elders (to different degrees), since the internet is not going to help anyone be a better sibling, but they also each try to explain (in their own ways) (their own waynes) why he was so, so very wrong about the way he approached being a good sibling, so he can hopefully improve at it (and stop terrorising the household).
(I saw a meme post about Damian putting legos all over the floor + hiding Tim's shoes to harm him and it made me think of the concept)
(Also once he learns that acting extra cute really can get him what he wants, he tries to use it now and then to his advantage, but is hilariously bad at doing it, since he doesn't really have a grasp on what makes a younger sibling cute (which is.... literally just existing,, according to me, a middle child). Lucky for him the others eat up every attempt because it's so obvious what he's doing that it becomes cute to them, so he doesn't need to get real practice with it until he tries to use it on a non-bat who laughs at him for far too long about it and thusly brews fire in him to go back to the pranks he tried at the start of the little brother training montage and show them real sibling pain for making a fool of him.)
#me on this account: 'batfam time' me on the art account : 'batfam time'#you can say what you want about me but you CANNOT say I'm neurotypical#the strength it took to type neurotypical on my keyboard.... you have no idea.... for someone who literally had to attend touch type class.#I cannote type#I'd like to think Jason and Cass would hit him with the 'a good little brother would go get me a soda right now' concepts to#assert the older sibling dominance that CAUSES the sibling fights (it works)#Duke Steph and Dick are just like 'when you are just yourself that's when you're being a good little brother' and Tim#is like (throwing up noises) about it#Tim is the guy that secretly wishes he was the family baby but sadly he is not and so he's gotta act that way to hide it (poorly)#he is baby to me though sorry baby#barbara sends him memes about sibling life to prove that since he can relate to them he in fact HAS been a good little brother all along#or at least a fairly normal one#batman#batfam#damian wayne#sorry for this everyone I can't stop thinking about these bats#I wrote this in a haze forgive grammar spelling thinking everything just god please forgive me let me go I hate hyperfixating#I'm sure this concept already exists btw but I'm not sorry for also thinking about it I am simply high fiving the other believers
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EEPY
#eepy eepy kitten....#she's all tucked in and curled up <3#LOOK AT HER!!! GAZE UPON HER PINK NOSE AND BEANS!#she's my little buddy <3#i wish i could get her leash trained i would Love to go on walks with her#she'd be unbearable! unmanageable!#absolutely unprompted#photos from the bog#alright now that thats out of the way guess what im fuming about today!#ha! you thought this was a cute kitten post! WRONG! eldritch blast!#yeah so fuck youtube all my homies hate youtube#WYM IT SENSES ADBLOCKER AND LITERALLY STOPS YOU FROM WATCHING VIDEOS#that should be illegal!#begging and praying that someone Talented at making site extensions makes one that gets around youtube's stupid fucking adblock sensor#I WOULD LIKE TO WATCH MY SILLY VIDEOS IN PEACE THANKS#this world sickens me. ads everywhere. everything monetized. sell your hobbies. what if we all exploded huh#WHERE IS THE FREEDOM FROM LATE-STAGE CAPITALISM? WHEN DOES THE MADNESS END#ads make me want to rip out someone's throat with my teeth#i dont mind the taste of blood let me commit violence
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Does anyone have any tips to help stop yourself from comparing your artwork to others, or equating your value as an artist with likes and reblogs?
I've struggled with this for a while and it's getting old, I don't know how to just shrug it off. Any genuine advice would be nice
#its just bygging me bc i know rationally they dont matter i knoe they dont#but i still feel it in my bones that im not good enough because my work doesnt circulate on platforms#i paint for fun and then i post and i get these feelings and theyre so goddamn annoying#i know to just keep posting anyway and try to enjoy the ride but my Depression Brain is such an asshole#i wish it would be quiet#i never used to feel this way either until likes and reposts/reblogs became so integral to social media#on top of needing commissions to get by while looking for work and attending school soon#idk maybe this is just a vent and ik no one can Fix it that simply#i guess im just speaking 2 the void rn and maybe others feel the same#*bugging#and i really am so grateful just to know anyone likes it or comments on it and reading feedback really really means so much#but i feel like unless im pumping out specific fandom stuff that doesnt really happen#but the negative thoughts and feelings can b rly strong sometimes and im just tired#im sure this is a depression thing too#hoping i can get into therapy thru school but it depends on finances as everything else in this world does 🫠#ill keep going tho#and please if you are someone who does comment or reblog and say something about the work please do not ever stop#it means so much to me and others im positive it does#i see you and i appreciate you so so much#thank you and thank you to anyone who reads or comments some ideas
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